It's Never Easy Today, I woke up with the chance to cry, But, only shook my head and stood up... It's never easy to live only a lie, And a solid lie can never be enough. It's never sincere, This cold and unforgiving world Of hopeful emeralds, deceiving sapphires, And dawn-lit skin pearls... Everything that glitters, is not gold, But I still won't shed a single tear. I am going to find some ghost to hold, So that I may find myself right back here. No one cares about the meanings, Of the words that we speak, And joyous nights of fog and rain, Makes the sunshine look so bleak. No, it is never totally easy, And it always seems so far. No it is never completely simple, To mend a shattered heart. How much did you think I could take? How many lies did you think I'd believe? How much, until you thought I would break? It's never been so easy to forget to breathe. It's never easy, being stuck right here... It's never easy, living out my worst fears... It's never easy, to frequently deny you... No, it's never easy to constantly act the way that you do... It's never easy to drown in a shallow pool of blood... It's never easy to bleed the tears of unrequited love... It's never easy, knowing that I will never be enough... I haven't cried, but it's never easy, pretending to be so tough. Deborah Renae Duerer March 27, 2004