My Mind


My mind’s eye sees

As you creep

Naturally I see you,

But Spiritually I’m blind

Hiding behind

That comfortable place

Of “not knowing�

But I know all to well.

What my heart doesn’t know,

My face won’t show,

The tears won’t flow,

The pain won’t send a blow

That I’m not ready for

Closed the door

On the idea of giving you up

See I gave too much

And I’m not ready

Yet

I know what you do,

And I try to do it too,

But Love won’t let me go

All

The

Way

So why doesn’t it stop you?

You claim to possess

The same kind of love I have,

That makes me want you to stay

But makes you go away

Wait! That’s not the same

The kind of Love I have,

Makes me cry when I’m not with you

And it makes you cry too,

When you’re desperate and you want me back

Now that’s not the same

The kind of love I have

Sends me into deep depression

With building aggression

Every time we argue

But it makes you say hurtful things

That constantly ring

Inside my ear and rupture my ear drums

So that I’m def to reasoning

And my heart is all I hear

“BUT YOU LOVE HIM!�

And I do

I love you so much

That I long for you touch

Even while you’re touching me

And when you lay with me

Intimately

I imagine our future

And our family

And it’s enough for me to

Hold on to

Even though you’re wrong U

R my whole world

And my life doesn’t seem right without you in it

And that hurts

Because I know I’m stronger than that

And as a matter of fact

One day I’ll be free

And I’ll finally see

That I must first love me

And whatever is to be

Will be


JG03



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